Lost Inspiration

my mind races and it seems to reach nowhere but you
i want to escape this state of mind where its just you
my happiness and sadness connects to you
everything in my life ends up to you and starts from there too
its an absurd situation where i cant see beyond you
i wish i could sleep this state off
or maybe bang my head off the wall
its not easy loving you
you test my patience to its limit
i want to rise in love
but with this kind of attitude of yours
i can only see myself going deeper and deeper down
this isn’t how love is supposed to be
its a feeling of joy and peace
and where nothing matters but u and me
where its just us
and one day u ill know ur complete with me in u
till that day i stay where i m …
and that’s in your heart safe and happy

so many days have passed by
and its raining again and it has bought back the harsh memories
to this day i have loved the rain but sadly she came in again and ruined it all
u have lied to me for her even when i know ur with her and u just couldn’t stand up for me on it
i don’t regret anything with you for i love u without any reason
it made me so mad that i could feel the heat coming out of my body and sadness taking over me
and i just couldn’t understand why HER
after all what we have been thru and she doesn’t know about me and u
and your this way pierces my heart thru it
and i get lost in a lost world
all i ever asked from u was everything but wt i deserved
i guess i at least deserved sincerity from u if not lies
and i trust you when u you say you seriously love me

i hate it when u make me smile
n even more when u make me cry

i hate it when u make me happy
n even more when u make me sad

i hate it when u adore me
n even more when u despise me

i hate it when u give me your attention
n even more when u ignore me

i hate it when u look away from me
n even more when u look at me

i hate it when you are with her
and even more when you are with me missing her

but most of all i don’t hate..not even a little
and even more when u don’t understand my blind love for u

i just wish i could show u how much u mean to me